who is acting? 誰のせいか

Several years ago, I did "Peace Show" with my friends in NY. It was very good experience for me including difficulty and hardship of funding. From that experience, I had one conclusion. Acting is very important and no meaning to just criticise even those people are smart.

I knew that our action was very small and had so many problems, but we had will to do something for world peace. It could be "silly childish idea" for sophisticated business people, but as artists, it was really important to have voice and move. So we did even it was small start. However, some of my friends in Japan just criticise or ignore. If they know better solution, please let me know. If they can help us, please let do something. I know my friends were all smart and nice business people, so they might know better, but they did nothing. If they thought we were wrong, I wanted to hear directly, but they joked it behind me. They paid nothing. It was very bitter experience for me.

I am not talking badly about them. I just understood it as Japanese tendency about matters. They are nice people and nice business people, but very bad about acting for society by own idea.

Now when I was watching TV, they are just criticising the Government. But who is really acting for this disaster? Journalists are just criticising that the Government delay informing the new service for people in shelter. Well, can be so, but you also have ability and responsibility for informing the latest information to people. Why don't you acting at the same time to criticise.? Same thing to politicians in other parties. They are just criticising and waiting for the present Government would decline after a while. But the Government asked them to join to act for this disaster and they refused the offer. This is Japanese biggest disaster and so severe that it is time that everybody should do what they can do if they have ability. And politician should act. Why they refused to corporate with the present Government and just kept quiet? And why citizen still believe that those "no action" politicians can do better than who is doing the best at this point? Acting is always having lacking and mistaking rather than doing nothing, but somebody have to do something for operating the society. Also it was not right to think that this change is somebody's responsibility. We got the tragedy and we have to face on. Even we did not hope, we cannot go back the time before 3/11.

私は、むかーし、平和展なるものをニューヨークの友人とやった事がある。その時のことは、大変だったけど経験として、今も教訓が残ってる。その主な一つに、「行動せず、批判する事は、簡単だ」という事だ。洗練された意見だったとしても、行動を伴わないものは、意味がない。それは、立派なビジネスマンである友人達であっても同じ、私は「これは日本の特徴なんだ」と思った。それは、ニューヨーク時代に、「とりあえず、やってみよう」「いいね！」の感覚で生きてきた自分にとっては、カルチャーショックだった。失敗する事もないのかもしれないけれど、社会を変えてくれるようにも思えず、息苦しく感じた。社会が停滞する原因は、この「多くの批評家達」の存在のせいなのかもな、とも思った。もちろん、現状の日本を支えているものでもあるのだから、ダメだとも言えないのだけれど。とにかく、何かを変化させて行く時には、批評家になってしまうと何も変わらない。一つずつ、行動していく事が大事なのだ。

現在、政府への批判が高まってるように感じるけど、私は、実際に動いている彼らを、協力を断ったり、なりをひそめている政治家が、自分達に運気が来るのを待ってる様子がたまらなくいやである。政治家なら、そして、「こうすべきだった」と思えるなら、自分が何かできる事をその時に、すべきだと思う。この緊急時になにもしなかった人間が、これからの時代に、なにをしてくれるのだろう？あきらかに人手不足なのに、国をゆるがす緊急事態なのに。報道機関も、「情報が行き渡っていない」という批判ばかりしてるけれど、情報を流すという基本的な役割を担う立場のメディアなら、それを批判する、というだけでは片手落ちのような、、、自分達も従来の役割にだけこだわって、何も新しい行動を生み出せてないのではないだろうか？（地元密着型の新聞社は、瓦版を発行して、行方不明者の捜索に大きな役割を買っていた。動いてる人は動いてるのだ）

この天災は、誰のせいでもない。この後、起こる生活の変化も、誰のせいでもない。３／１１以前には戻れない。自分のできる事をしながら、変化とともに生きていく。それが、自分の役割なのかな、と思う。